Shooting an Elephant (1936) In Burma I was hated by large numbers of people – the only time in my life that I have been important enough for this to happen to me. I was sub-divisional police officer, and in an aimless, petty way anti-European feeling was very bitter. As a police officer I was an obvious target. In the end the sneering yellow faces of young men that met me everywhere, the insults hooted after me when I was at a safe distance, got badly on my nerves.
A small incident
I did not know what I could do, but I got on to a pony and started out. I took my rifle, an old 44 Winchester and much too small to kill an elephant, but I thought the noise might scare him. Various Burmans stopped me on the way and told me about the elephant's doings.
It was not, of course, a wild elephant, but a tame one which had gone "must." It had been chained up but on the previous night it had broken its chain and escaped. Its owner, had set out in pursuit, but had taken the wrong direction. He was now twelve hours' journey away, and in the morning the elephant had suddenly reappeared in the town. It had already destroyed somebody's bamboo hut, killed a cow and turned over fruit-stalls and a rubbish van
A Man’s Dead Body
I had almost made up my mind that the whole story was a pack of lies, when we heard yells a little distance away. There was a loud, scandalized cry of "Go away, child! Go away this instant!" and an old woman with a switch in her hand came round the corner of a hut, violently shooing away a crowd of naked children. Some more women followed, clicking their tongues and exclaiming.
I came round the hut and saw a man's dead body sprawling in the mud. He was an Indian, almost naked, and he could not have been dead many minutes. The people said that the elephant caught him with its trunk, put its foot on his back and ground him into the earth. This was the rainy season and he was lying on his belly in the soft mud, with his arms crucified and his head sharply twisted to one side. His face was coated with mud, the eyes wide open, the teeth bared and grinning with an expression of unendurable agony. (Never tell me, by the way, that the dead look peaceful. Most of the corpses I have seen looked devilish.)
I sent someone to a friend's house nearby to borrow an elephant rifle. He came back in a few minutes with a rifle and five cartridges.
A Bit of Fun
Meanwhile some Burmans had arrived. They told us that the elephant was in the paddy fields below, only a few hundred yards away. As I started forward people came out of the houses and followed me. They had seen the rifle and were all shouting excitedly that I was going to shoot the elephant. They had not shown much interest in the elephant when he was merely ravaging their homes, but it was different now that he was going to be shot.
It was a bit of fun to them; besides they wanted the meat. It made me vaguely uneasy. I had no intention of shooting the elephant – I had merely sent for the rifle to defend myself if necessary – and it is always unnerving to have a crowd following you.
I marched down the hill, looking and feeling a fool, with the rifle over my shoulder and an ever-growing army of people jostling at my heels. At the bottom, the elephant was standing eight yards from the road, his left side towards us. Ignoring the crowd's approach, he continued tearing up bunches of grass and stuffing them into his mouth.
I did not want to shoot him
I thought then and I think now that his attack of "must" was already passing off; in which case he would merely wander harmlessly about until the mahout came back and caught him. Moreover, I did not in the least want to shoot him. I decided that I would watch him for a little while to make sure that he did not turn savage again, and then go home.
They were watching me as they would watch a conjurer about to perform a trick. They did not like me, but with the magical rifle in my hands I was momentarily worth watching.
An absurd puppet
And suddenly I realized that I had to shoot the elephant after all. The people expected it of me; I could feel their two thousand wills pressing me forward, irresistibly.
And it was at this moment, as I stood there with the rifle in my hands, that I first grasped the hollowness, the futility of the white man's dominion in the East. Here was I, the white man with his gun, seemingly the leading actor of the piece. But in reality I was only an absurd puppet pushed to and fro by the crowd behind me.
I had got to shoot the elephant. To come all that way, rifle in hand, with two thousand people marching at my heels, and then to trail feebly away, having done nothing – no, that was impossible. The crowd would laugh at me. And my whole life, every white man's life in the East, was one long struggle not to be laughed at.
The only alternative
I had got to act quickly and it was perfectly clear to me what I ought to do. I ought to walk up to within, say, twenty-five yards of the elephant and test his behaviour. If he charged, I could shoot. If he took no notice of me, it would be safe to leave him until the mahout came back.
But I knew that I was going to do no such thing. I was a poor shot with a rifle and the ground was soft mud. If the elephant charged and I missed him...
Even then I was afraid in the ordinary sense, only of the crowd watching me. The sole thought in my mind was that if anything went wrong those two thousand Burmans would see me pursued, caught, trampled on and reduced to a grinning corpse like that Indian up the hill. And some of them would laugh. That would never do.
Bit of fun
At last, after what seemed a long time – it might have been five seconds – he fell to his knees. I fired again into the same spot. At the second shot he did not collapse but climbed with desperate slowness to his feet and stood weakly upright.
I fired a third time. That was the shot that did for him. You could see the agony of it jolt his whole body and knock the last strength from his legs. But in falling he seemed for a moment to rise, like a huge rock toppling, his trunk reaching skyward like a tree. He trumpeted, for the first and only time. And then down he came, his belly towards me, with a crash that shook the ground. He was dying, very slowly
Finally I fired my two remaining shots. The thick blood welled out of him like red velvet, but still he did not die. He was dying, very slowly and in great agony. The great beast lay there, powerless to move and yet powerless to die.
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